I'm unsure how to feel; what to think; how to be.
My everything is now nothing. Forever we are to be nothing when we were once to be all.
I still love you; adore you; care for you. I also miss you at incredible lengths.
All this has happened because of reasons. I'm unsure what goes on in your mind. I never knew what you were thinking or how you would react or be with me. I never understood why you got so mad over such trivial things.
I wish we could have been all that I dreamed of. You were my future, my present, yet now you're my past and it hurts me.
It hurts me to miss you. That I can't just contact you to see how you are.
Why did all of this have to happen? Why can't you see why we went wrong?
I am not perfect but you are the reason we are no more. You said you would never hurt me, yet you put your hands on me. You said you loved me, yet you are moving on faster than my eyes blink. You said you cared about me, yet you only seemed to care for yourself.
I made you the centre of my world. I can't see how to go forward without you. I don't know where to go or how to go anywhere. You became my life and now I have no life.
Why did you have to do this? I hate you for having me fall so deeply in-love with you and for making me feel this way. For everything I tried to do. For everything you only did when it was too late. Why could we not have just been us?
It was you & me.
And in my mind it still is.
I hate loving you like this. I hate all that has happened. I hate the people who tell me how I should be feeling about life, you, everything. I don't know where to go or what to do.
I hate you for not being in my life anymore. I hate myself for not having you in my life anymore.
I hate being alive right now.
